Yes Sir, You are giving specific instructions that I have just ignored. It is true on what you are saying, I CAN CONTROL, MY SELF, I JUST CHOOSE NOT TO. I am a man, and know how to take critisism when I know I am wrong. Do not hold anything back, I do want to grow, and be a better me.
When I told her about disrespect, I meant the other guy. Yes, Is like you are saying, I wanted to be the better man, [censored]...
Oh, one other negative I need to change. I need to learn how to STFU and listen. Really, need to learn how to STFU and listen, again, I need to learn how to STFU and listen. Denver has given me that advice, and again I need to STFU and listen.
It is pretty hard as you are saying being around her. I am struggling with my emotions and want to have them under control. I do not want to beat my self on this or any other issues with W, and right now I feel better, than what I tought I would feel when this situation happened. In other words, I still feel the pain, but is not as painful as I tought it would be.
Yes, I do wish for this guy to go away, but still "love your enemy as you love your neighbor". With that said, it is not that I want my W with him, it is that I pray for him to be blessed with the understanding of leaving, and if possible without damage.
I feel you, I need to be the better man by STFU.
On your comments when I said it was going to be for the better. I do not want to lose the woman I love, or what is going to happen with the kids will be for the better. Man hard words on your part, but like I said, keep it real and do not sugar coat any of your advice. I feel disrespected when things are NOT said straight forward. And for right now this is the only way I am going to understand things.
When she was speaking about OM buying a house for her, and that she was scared and that she could end her R with him right away, I did listen to her, again I CHOSE NOT PAY ATTENTION TO HER. Instead, I tried to make her see that I am the better choice to clear her confusion. Yes, I know she is confused and is hurting real bad, but I am being ignorant of this. I am focusing on my stupid ways of telling her what to do.... and I need to stop this behavior on my part. I am not her Dad, and I do ont want to be her Dad. Everything comes to one point I need to learn how to STFU.
Eric, once again man, thanks. You once posted when you were going thru your problems that you wish you were at the point of confidence Jack, Cadet and the many other were at the time. Man I wish the same, I will get there..
I guess your advice is not to speak to her, right. Well, I am not going to contact her, enough damage was done in five minutes. I will let time pass by, and focus on my self, I am in deep need to soul search my self and learn from this. I need my own space too, like a lion to lick my wounds, heal my self and come strong again....
By the way, I am from Parral Chihuahua. Chihuahua is on the north of Mexico and Parral is a southern city known as the Capital of the World, about 120 years ago it was the world's top producer of silver in the world and that is how it got this nickname.
When I am done with the firebird, I will ship it to you.. at least a picture
