Blood on the Tracks

[tested metal]

I seem to be detaching pretty well lately and hadly with about XW anymore. Sadly I think that it took actually signing the D papers to finally detach. Ironically, I think that this might stem from my Catholic upbringing where divorce is not really allowed or recognized. I know that I was holding on to the marriage because I loved XW and not because "I had to." Somehow though the papers must have been a cathartic release, perhaps something that physically felt like cutting the cord.

I know that I still love XW, but need to save myself from her bad decisions. Whatever the case, I wish her the best and I am startig to try new things on my own. Next week when i have time, I will start to exercise again and go biking. I am also planning to see Bob Dylan this summer, which has been one of my dreams.