hi- i think i'm writing to i'mthemom- i'm nero, new pretty much- was reading your posts- I am sitting here sizzling with anger and insulted to death to think (i'm pretty sure) my H (tho not married- 34 yrs together) is with ow. i can just scream- but what good would it do? how do you guys find the immense inner strength to just keep going on??? i've known for a year- i swear i hate it so badly when i know they're together- she's in another town- he is in one house - i'm in another- different states- he sees her on weekends when he's away- i hate it so much i could croak- don't tho. thought of calling her and telling her what i think of her, the cow - she knew me back in the day - I can't bring myself to do it and give her and him evidence of my pain - what would they do, laugh? make fun of me - don't know. I can't even contemplate spying in case i see them together and might die on the spot . i couldn't bear to look - - some days i don't even want to see his face or hear his voice- but miss my life (we were great together til he began cheating). so- i guess i THOUGHT it was great - i'm having so much trouble telling myself it's all about him and not hurting me. it hurts- he's doing it- he's deciding to do it- blah blah blah. alot of days i'm better and can shove it out of my mind for a bit- some days (today) i'm damn consumed and pissed that i'm nothing and so not important in his life and in his mind. any wisdom? any secret drug that gives me patience and ability to forgive- any anything that might help a poor sap???
