Regarding my anger, It is not that I am angry all the time about something or something that happened to me. What triggers it is basically because I can not control the outcome of things. I get frustrated and then, raged. Like I told I have been working on this for years with the help of God. I have come to kill many of my demons. One thing that always bother me was my biological dad, I would see him every once in a while when I was a kid, and spent every other summer with him. When I turned 16, after many years of not seen him, I decided that the relationship I wanted with my Dad was my choice and not his, so I made a trip to see him. Funny how things came down. I did not have to start the conversation, it was him. He said he wanted to give me his last name, I said that it was good for him to have started the conversation, but that the answer was no, that I already have a last name, but I told him, that I respected him, and love him as a Father, and that wathever he did in the past was forgiven on my part. I told him that it was not his choice to have my relationship with me, because it was my relationship with him, that if he wanted to have a relationship with me he would have to man up and create one. He cried and hugged me. From that time we have the best father relationshi we could ever have. With all this happening right now, it is been teaching me to be humble.
With my biological mom, the relationship has always been mother to soon, I love, respect and trust my mom. She is the first great news God gave me in my life, up until today I can not believe how lucy I am for having her as my mom. With my grandparent, who I call Papa and Mama, man again, very blessed by God, without them I would be somebody else.
I am going to stop this right here.. Something drasticall happen just minutes ago an I have posted that firts..
