Ok, here I go again.. Wife stopped by a couple of minutes ago, and wanted to talk about the phone incident with the OM today in the morning.
I confronted my W, and as Eric is saying, I am not ready yet. Still, I could not stop my self and did it and let her now that I am will not tolerate any of our behavior.
I told her that I knew she was with other man, and that I did not believe any of the things she was saying about her having sex with me only. I told her that I knew she was spending most of the time at OM place and when she would go see me it was right after her been with OM. I told her to be true to her self and ask her own self as to what she wants. I remarked that she is not respecting either of us, and that it needs to stop. I told her that on my part, I will not accept any of that. She told me she does not wants to lose me and that she is really scared of losing me. I told her to stop saying that, because I was only her plan B, when everything else with OM has cooled off.
I told her I would not have sex with her anymore as long as she was with OM, that I would not disrespect my self that way anymore.
Now, more of the same crap from my part. I told her that I pray for her and this guy everyday, for God to bless them on every necessety they have, and for this guy no ot get hurt. Also, that I pray for this guy to walk away. I told her that I am working on forgiving my self as well as forgiving her. I told her that her decisions were hers to make, and no body else, and that wathever the outcome it was going to be for better.
She told me OM man is already buying a house for her and ready to make a life with her. She told me that things with OM are going really fast, and is not what she wants. Again I told her that it is a decision she needs to make. I told her about the "for better or for wort" and told her that I have already lived the for "better" part and that now I am living the for "worst" part. She said this is not what I want, it is to fast and do not want this. I told her, ok, look back at our selves, how long did it take you to be with me, she said 3 days. Now, you are having doubts about your relationship with this guy going too fast. You simply do not love him.
She told me I can end it right away, and be with you, but I am afraid of been alone again, or that when we are together you would not want me back. Again, I told her, I am not your back up plan, is either you live this guy and for us to fight for our marriage or is not. Her eyes got wet, and said I need a lot to fix on myself and left.
Now, from here is picking my nuts back and hold to the decision I just made.
Please guys, do not hold anything right now and give me your support, and advise, hard advice...
