Newbie and ready for hard work

[dj21]

So after a not so great session with my C I have decided that I need to cancel my future sessions. I have read many times that I needed to have a pro-M C, and I thought that I did. Until, yesterdays session. I haven't been to my C since reading and beginning the DB approach, I shared my goals and how hard it has been on a daily basis to look at things from a DB approach. The response was this " He's not interested in being married to you, he will probably always love you, but he has made his choice, you need to not put so much of your energy into hoping for something that won't happen. Instead put your energy into moving on, I feel like you're back sliding". I felt so defeated, even questioning myself a little. I have gone to this C for 2 years, my H and I went to this C for 6 sessions back in 2010 and at the end of our 6 sessions the C stated "you two are very much in love, contact me for an appointment if you feel you need further help", UH, okay. I don't like that feeling of someone else taking my hope and making me feel stupid. I don't like the way I have been feeling the past 8 months being bitter, angry, resentful, and full of blame. This new approach is so very difficult for me, but I feel better, and my teeny tiny results are of a positive nature. I have felt lighter and energized with the DB approach, and the online community. I have a little bit of guilt stopping with the C, but I cannot put myself in a situation where I am not supported with my decision, and hope to me is my decision.