MLC with depression....double the fun!

[albamarie]

H has not quit his job. His night job has been a source of distance and loneliness for both of us.

He works during the day at times and then goes straight to the night job never stopping at home because it's across town.

It's great opportunity for me to GAL, but sleeping alone is the nightly let down I faced for 20yrs.

H told me he loved me today on his day lunch break. That's out of the blue. Just 2wks ago he was talking about moving out. (DONT TRUST 50% OF WHAT THEY SAY)

H talks and even looks on his face like he is in a new wave of MLC. It's crazy but H looked like a different man at his lowest times. His facial features were like pierced. I have seen his face relaxing lately. But, I'm not letting any of that dictate how I react. I'm still "out of his way".

H has spent so much effort trying to convince me how he's "no good" that I wonder if I would want him back. I have put this M in God's hands and am continuing to seek answers everyday.

I can't figure anything out or change anything except myself, I know! I'm not sure what else to do, I can't go out.... I didn't make friends in 23yrs as my H was my BFF.