i'm glad too that you all had such a wonderful outing. You have to remember this day as special.When you thought stopped, had no expectations and didn't build yourself up to a tizzy over how it might or might not go, good things happened.
Your h was able to relax around you - and that is what you want to focus on as a goal - is to be relaxed and not expectant, yourself. it is the first teeny tiny baby step and it's hard to get it for a very long time, that the more relaxed we are and the less we resist what is going on - the more they can relax and stop running away from us.
so next time you feel the urgent rise of something needing to happen or to change, remember this and how it works. it changes because we change, and we change by not fighting the whole thing so much
I do hope you all make it through the surgery well and of course especially your son.
take care zig
ps - won't you come be with us at the picnic?
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
