more turtles by my side...

[zig]

I think it does Brit - it carried me through a wreck of a day today.

that's why i stayed off the boards - just needed to get through all this crap that came up from some nether underworld inside myself

triggered by star sky no less!!!

but i'm in a good place now - am finding out more and more that as i let go and turn my focus towards myself, it allows this stuff to come up and out. at first i would balk at having to deal with it, but now i find that i am not spinning off.

i actually thought to myself today for the first time - i think i'm actually staying still, staying completely in the moment - just where i am with all of what is going on and not trying to be somewhere else - like in the past or the future, the why or the what, the who or the where...

i think i actually lived my tag line today for the first time.

so even though a lot of pain and anguish, there was a lot of peace in realizing that yes this is where i'm at and later i simply won't be in this same place again.

right now, h feels very far away in my mind in some ways .... which is at it should be....

in my mediation tape it says at one point: You are right where you should be

yes i am

right where I should be....