from the WAS to being walked away on

[AJM]

If I may, let me suggest a few things:
1) think about it before you write anything to him. Seriously. You do NOT want to waffle as that will just destroy trust. You have to mean it.
2) You said your ego is part of the problem. I think there's more. But I will say that ego, in the scheme of things, is worthless if you watch the love of your life and your family walk away because of it.

I get it. Nobody wants to be hurt. But everyone does want to be the hero. You may not get what you want. You may not fully know what you want. But you have the chance of a lifetime to make things great. To learn the lessons and really make things great.

What I do know is that we are both hurt and waiting for the other to change or do the ice breaking.

What's holding me back? Pride, pain, ego, fear of opening myself up to rejection? Yes. Afraid to go there emotionally again after 7 months, yes.

I totally see this in your posts. Your words ring painfully true. If that helps

I think you are both hurt and I think his confusion makes it harder for him than you. You don't have a huge window of opportunity I would think. But you do still have a choice whether now or later. Your choice is how you handle things. You have to accept that his choice is just as valid.

Be brave. Take the risk and go get what you want. You don't have to give up your pride or ego for this, but you can set it aside and realize there are much bigger and more important things you want in the long term.

I appreciate your honesty and consideration of another side to things. I really do. I think that says a lot about you.

Peace,
AJ