H planned for us to take the kids to the aquarium. I loved the idea and kept my mind clear of negative thoughts as they were coming at me like bullets! I worked at thought stopping, prayed, meditated. It went great!
H came over in the morning and gave me a bday hug. He said, I wish I could've gotten you something (cuz money's super tight right now). We had a great time. Even took a pix the 4 of us! (his idea). Went to lunch. Kids were asleep and there was a lot of quiet time. Small talk. Nothing intense.
All in all it was really nice. He's gone now. I have some things I'm going to do to keep me busy but I can't help but to feel a little sad. I thought that we would've reconciled by now.
Just gotta keep on going. Enjoying my kids and this peaceful time. My son has surgery Wed, Aug 1st. Please keep him in your prayers. I wish my family could be there but my brother and sister have made it clear they don't want to be near H and I would hate it if they made him feel uncomfortable on a day when he and I should be solely focused on S4!
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
