W called me and asked if I wanted to goto lunch today. When seated in the booth, I played around and said I was going to sit next to her because friends don't sit next to each other, friends sit across. She said that was fine but it is easier to talk when across.
She mentioned at lunch she hasn't talked to OM or OM mama in weeks.
We play/flirt a lot around the 'friend' thing. She reminds me that is how it was when we first dated ten years ago. She said friends, I said I had enough friends.
What do I really want in a relationship?
My W as my best friend is the most important. But I also want the intimacy, the physical touch. Take what I have with my W right now and add in intimacy and I am happy. We talk and do so many things now. Things we talked about doing but never did.
If that is not an option, I return to the original question: What do you want? How are you planning on getting it and can or will your wife ever be the answer?
My plan is to continue to lead my life as I am now. I GAL when I can. I am refurnishing my home from the W taking what she wanted when she moved. I am just going to be someone only a fool would leave. I have filled the voids where I depended on my W and Ds for happiness.
To justify what she did, the W built up some huge walls. Hopefully my path will break down those walls so my W can see what she is missing before it is too late and I move on.
My greatest fear is that she will only see me as a friend from here on out. A day where she gets so comfortable in friendship that she has no problem talking about her wanting to date other people because she no longer sees me that way. This will of course kill the friendship as I will need to distance myself.
M-40 W-33 D3, D4, SD13 T 9 YEARS M 5 YEARS ILYBINILWY APRIL 2012
