so - what happened with you "in the end" or are you still working on it all? (if that's not too personal)
i'm new & I just read your post , and i'm glad to have read the bit about "i can walk away at any time". it's a good thought - I hate feeling powerless and i am so resentful - some days i feel like just running. - some days i feel like i am duty-bound (for all the good years & good times) to try at least to ride it out til i can't stand it anymore. I am so insulted all the time and my feelings are hurt. I hate the thought tho, of just handing my life over to someone else "without a fight" - whatever the heck that means. i know i can't do a damn thing to change a damn ting- except maybe me. i lose faith sometimes about it - or hope. i know it could be lots & lots worse- but it doesn't feel better so much to know that.
thanks for the encouraging words- it's wierd & hard to try and find a new life at the drop of a hat- or to think he was finding one and i never knew for a long time. why the heck don't men open their mouths and just be honest or talk - or walk or do something other than lie & lead us on? oh well huh? sorry to rant- thanks for insights.
