You never had that conversation? Your behavior felt justified to you? Your current behavior seems OK to you now?
It might be ok, but I can tell you as an outsider that it would confuse the hell out of me. I'd basically suggest that "my spouse is unhappy but having conversations in her head about me and to me. I get little fragments of those conversations. Not sure what to do about it." If I was your husband.
On the one hand, I get some of it. You are ending your marriage and blaming somebody else for it. I'm sure there are all kinds of crazy emotions around that.
On the other, it's all about you. Is that new? I dunno. But you are so self-centered in these posts, if I was your H I would be confused as well. Caught between my love for you, my pain at what you've done, your self-centeredness, my desire for my family to be together, and my own sanity.
More later,
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
