One other thing. W called me this morning and asked if it was ok to stop by my office at lunch time so we can discuss finances. I told her I didn’t know why we couldn’t just go over things on the phone and she agreed that would be fine. As much as I miss her, I am hurt and it’s actually easier for me to not be around her. When I do see her, I like to keep our interactions as brief as possible. What’s going through my head when W is around is get me the hell away from you!!!! I don’t show it on the outside but that’s how I feel on the inside.
Maybe I am becoming stoic, hardened, guarded, etc…. As difficult as it is, I just need to remember not to get mad, angry or bitter.
