It has helped me a lot to read other peoples stories and know that I am not alone. To know that what I see happening to my husband is not all in my mind. To get as much info on MLC as possible and try to understand it as much as possible. I still struggle with hurt and anger all the time. We can try to detach as best we can, but at the end of the day, we are only human too.

RH, it has been 6 long months since my H has asked me to do anything. 6 months of him sleeping on the couch. 6 months of zero physical affection. So I basically haven't had a H for a half of a year.

Some days are definitely tougher than others. We did nothing for our 10 year wedding anniversary. My birthday is at the end of August, and its anyone's guess what that will bring!

In the meantime, I feel a shifting inside of me. While I still love my H with all my heart, I am beginning to entertain the idea of what my life would be like without him. Maybe that's because I feel like I've already been living without the man I married.

I may have my moments of sadness and doubt, but I am also coming to an understanding that if things dont work out in our M, I am not going to lose my H... He is going to lose ME. And I am not sure he has even remotely considered this as a possibility.

We are going to get through this one way or another ladies. There may not be a light at the end of their tunnel, but there is at ours.

Let's keep moving towards the light smile

Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me

~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."