Hey RT. Sorry to hear about the test, but like you said, next semester..
Allow me to play along: "Just let me go already" - is that her you're talking to? Just asking.
The anger is there. I see it. Perhaps you feel like you should feel more? If so, why?
I also see some realism and some other feelings there. Perhaps there are many feelings and you need to focus on just one for a while? I'm balancing this with the part where you tried for years already to make the marriage work. To make the family work. To keep the dream alive. Maybe you've felt most of it already or maybe just a bit tired right now?
I suspect because you have kids together, that you'll have to deal with her for a long time. That isn't pleasant as she'll want to lash out at you. Possibly. Everyone is different.
When you say you are angry about her not valuing your opinion any longer...I know how that feels. Someone you trusted doesn't care any longer. Like a switch went off from an outside perspective.
I don't like the anger either, but it does take time to work through it. Take the time to focus on as few emotions as you can and feel them. They'll be easier to feel and be dealt with one at a time.
Just some thoughts. Keep well!
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
