Need help with detaching and hoping to reconcile.

[lillystillinlove]

I'm pretty sad today, I feel on the verge of tears. H gets his place in a few days. H sent me a long email the other day that I have been trying to craft a response to. I read it over and over and can't decide if I should send it or not. I bring up the subject of his part in the collapse of our marriage that I'm not sure he is taking into account. I take a lot of responsibility for the pain I caused him. But I now think that I was letting him off easy. I say several times that I'm not trying to blame him but I think we both contributed to our current situation. I keep editing, I don't want to come across as nasty. I should probably not respond but it is easier for us to communicate this way outside of or MC sessions so I don't want to miss an opportunity.