As has been said before, don't make a decision based on emotion. ^ months, 9 months, 12 months down the road, this will all feel very different.

Keep working on you. Right now he is still controlling you.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss