Needing some guidance... 5

[jks]

I feel like this cycle will never end if I don't leave. I think not being around their father all the time would be hard but I also know that they could Skype and talk on the phone any time they wanted so he wouldn't be out of their lives completely.

Something's gotta give. I don't see myself moving forward here. I'm stuck.

It's like I realize now that my H and I may not be a good fit anymore but I still love him like crazy. I still feel like his W. I still can't believe this is happening to us. I still want to just hug him and call him mine again.

All the while, he's actively pursuing another woman. He's nurturing another relationship and bringing her into the family like I'm nothing. I will never understand how a person does this to another person.

I feel like I'm torturing myself by staying here. It feels like emotional abuse. I know now that I can be very happy on my own and I feel like I have that right now.

My H made the decision to break up our family. And now he's putting me in a really hard place. Like I said, I'll be thinking about it for a while. I'm just more headed in that direction right now.