How do we fall into routine so easily, it's like a well rehearsed play. We went to a birthday party for a friend of mine's husband. The only person we knew was my friend. It seemed weird. It seemed like when we met new people before all this crap. Reminiscing, telling stories of our past/history. Conversation was outwardly easy. My friend knows a little of our situation and mentioned it was nice of him to come, I almost went into update mode but caught myself, pulled back and finally said, yes it was nice of him to come.
The whole evening was nice but superficial, comfortable and frustrating. I miss what was. We had a conversation on the drive home around a topic that is and has always been a point of contention for us. It was sparked by the tragedy in Colorado. I think he was trying to push buttons a little. My opinion is that I handled it well but I can't tell anymore.
4 days until H move out...
lillystillinlove M:43 H:49 T:17 M:16 S:6 Bomb: 1/27/12 EA+ with close married family friend / ILYBINILWY H moved out 7/27/12 H is Extremely angry, stressed and unable to forgive
