You know what buddy. Go another day.

You counter depression with water ( lots and lots of water ) and exercise.

When you want a drink. Leave your wallet at home grab a bottle of poweraid and go for a run.

Each time you think your down in the dumps. Drop and do 5 push up's and 20 sit ups.

Do this over and over.

And get into a routine again.

Go to bed and get up the same time every day. No matter how you feel.

You are suffering from depression.

You have anywhere else to stay ? Family. Good friends who have children ? Friends who exercise and have healthy habits ?

Get yourself into shape mentally.

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