A New Path - I just left my wife

[tpc1977]

I've lost a lot of hope here recently. And I've been really down in the dumps over many things.

Right now I'm in limbo. I'm staying at a friends place. My diet has suffered. My sleep has. I can't train here. So my world has been shifted on its axis of sorts. I have the biggest race series this year coming up and I am in no way prepared.

And further down the spiral all I want to do is drink. I didn't today. I made myself not, but I have been. It's like a teenager came out of me. I've been going out, staying out. My excuse is, well, I'm not sleeping anyway. It's so not me.

I miss my girls. I miss my house. I miss my dog. I miss my connection to what I was. My routines. I haven't had a home cooked meal in over a month. I eat snack foods because it's easier. I eat out more.

Right now I think I'm just really lonely and depressed. I need a jump start. Something that was never hard for me to do. I could easily get back on track. Now. Nope.