from the WAS to being walked away on

[strongerthanever]

Im not waiting on him to change (in order to be happy), but he would have to change in order for me to consider being in a R with him again.

If you look back you'll see I was a waw, and he DB me without even knowing it. But once the hype from that calmed down, I saw that he was still the same MSN I walked away from. I love him dearly, there's no denying that.

BUT, I need to be in a healthy relationship where I too feel like a equal partner that is loved and cared for. I need to feel appreciated and cared for. I use to think it was selfish to want that in a relationship, now I understand that's the basis of a healthy relationship.


It wasn't so easy for me to just walk out. At the lowest point in our m I was a sahm, no car, expired dl, no personal bank account...nothing. I completely depended on H for survival and my personal identity. It took 2 years to get where I am today, that's a long fight for my independence, but I am worth it.

I now have a full time job as a dod civilian, I'm a full time student st a university, I have my own apartment and last December bought my car. Complete change since 2 years ago.

And like I said, I love this man like crazy, but I'm also at a point where I'm ok that he just might not see r the way I see them. That he may not be capable of meeting my needs in a r. Make sense?

I'd rather be alone for the right reasons than in a R for the wrong.