A New Path - I just left my wife

[tpc1977]

The conversation immediately moved to her blaming me and how I "used" to be. She cannot seriously take her actions into why I left. It wasn't her sleeping with another many for several years. It was me pushing my family aside emotionally many years ago.

Unfortunately for her she cannot deny the changes in me, my dedication to show and prove to her what she really meant to me. How much my kids mean to me.

I sat there and listened to her spewing blame. And it all boiled down to her not knowing what she wants - who she wants.

I'm basically a choice in her future. I may or may not be a part of what she wants. Well, I took myself out of the equation. I don't want to be a simple choice. I was in her life for 15 years. I shouldn't be an A B or C decision.

She was never a choice in my life. She was a part of me. A part I didn't want to go without. So I changed who I was. I worked hard at becoming what I needed to be and what my family needed me to be.

I'm going to talk to someone tomorrow about finding a good lawyer. I want this legal and I want this quick. The absolute pain is more than I can bare sometime. I feel like something on a shelf in her little world. I'm getting off that shelf because I know I'm way more than a choice.