That's for swinging by GB I think you always have great insight.
I agree with everything you said its something I've learned and recognised in my behaviour during our relationship. That's why I was happy with my 180.
My friend this weekend after me telling her "a bit" about the developments said she really didn't think we could ever get past some of our bigger issues (the lack of sex being huge of course) anyway she said maybe you should just enjoy the fact that you guys have a good relationship right now and enjoy that.
I think she's right about the second part. I need to just happy with what's currently happening and not close myself off to anything else the universe might be offering to me. I don't know what will happen but I think last week I was unconsciously closing a few windows thinking that H's window had gotten bigger....and was more of an option.
What if I'm concentrating so much on H that I'm missing out on something else? I don't know....beginners mind....I need to open myself up for love whether it's H or not.
