I have not posted to you in a long time - I took some time off from the bb, but just spent some time catching up with your sitch and life in the last few months.
I just want to say that I admire your growth and strength. I wish I had that kind of insight when I was your age...
There is so much about the feelings that you share with us that resonate with me.
I still struggle with some of the same things as you - forgiveness and co-dependency. I have been focusing on these more intensely in the last few months. I am now going to CoDA - a 12 step program that has really helped me identify and deal with my issues more directly and clearly. I really would recommend attending a meeting if you can. They are all over the place and I am sure you could find one in SF.
As you very well know, the healing we are going thru takes time and you and I have now been on this rollercoaster for a while.
You know you have come such a long way from where you started so don't forget that. You are a source of inspiration for me.
I will keep checking back on your thread.
(((hugs)))
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D