Any chance to make it work? I need advice

[sweetbabyred]

MrBond, I think why it didn't normally bother me to take him places was because my two love languages are acts of service and quality time. So helping someone out is how I show that I care, and it's what a W should do.

Of course, H doesn't want me as a wife and I need to stop showing him that I love him, so that needs to stop as well. He flew home last night and found someone else to give him a ride.

I don't want to start any legal issues to try to see my SS. I've heard that he and his family might be moving back to our state in the next year (depending on the Army), so I can deal with his mom directly to see him and bypass H if I need to.

I've told H I'd like to see him as much as possible, but that I would not watch him so that H could hang out with his friends. He only gets to see his son for a limited time, so SS needs to be the priority right now. H can go back to partying in mid-August if he needs/wants to.

I thought I was better at detaching and acting as if, but the stress of getting the house ready to be turned over to the new owner in a week is getting to me. Closing that chapter of my life is harder than I thought it would be.

And I know that H really won't have a reason to contact me unless he actually wants to since he'll be living on the other side of town.

I'll finally be able to see if he will ever be willing to make me a priority, but I know that won't be for a long while, if ever, so the reality is hitting me.

I know that this will force me to accept where I really stand in all of this, but I think I know the answer and I'm scared to really find out.