If She Won't Stop the Affair?

[wont_stop]

Yes, I know she's taking advantage of me. I was all ready to divorce only three weeks ago, but then I backed off. I've been trying to DB since then. RegretfulLA, I'm not sure what you expect me to do. I can't force her to stop the A. If I do that, it pushes her closer to the other man. So, I assume you mean I should separate to force her to come to terms with a life without me.

I'm considering doing that at some point. I know I won't go on like this for more than a few more months. I just don't know how I should go about it. I could burn bridges and demand the house and see if I can force her to gind a place. But that would leave us no room for R. I could just separate and move out, leaving her the place. Its more peaceful, but I know that she will bring OM in. That would just make me sick, him replacing me like I am some cog.

Until I decide its really no use to stay, I'm just DBing along.

Jounal:

Today we went to the "How to train your dragon" show. It [censored] because the OM bought the tix. What was worse is he has a walking disability, so they were in the handicapped section. So, my daughter put two and two together and figured out where they came from. She asked WW where they came from, and she just blew her off. Then my D started crying, and Jane could not figure out why. It's a thick fog in her head. I did not lose it this time like I did before. I whispered to my wife why she was upset. Then I comforted my D. She was better and the rest of the evening went ok.

Now I am at home with the kids, but Jane is gone out. This is the kind of crap I am sick of. It makes me want to GAL, which I already have due to us almost mediating. But I'm working on me. I took the kids out to a concert. I did ok and we are going to church tomorrow. I believe more and more that I don't need her to take care of my kids. I miss her, but less so each day.