more turtles by my side...

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journaling - h just called. the phone rang and by the time i got to it he had left a super hurried message and rang off.

i called him back - and joked lightly about how he couldn't have left a quicker message - he sounded nervous but upbeat - like he was trying hard. i just said here's s - he had called to say goodnight to him and got off quickly.

i was pleased though - this is a change - all the other trips it would be 4 or 5 days before he called and s would seem more and more down. now after talking to h for over 20 mins - he's laying in bed singing at the top of his voice - started right after he got off the phone.

my s is well and it makes my heart warm. and he's well because finally after so long, h is really doing right by him in a lot more ways than before, since the BD.

i did unnerve s yesterday , not realizing that h had not really told him much. h had just told him he was going out of town, and s was shocked to realize that he had already left.i don't think he has any idea when h is coming back - but i will talk to him and make it clear tonight when putting him to bed.