25, I am LDS. Not sure if you know what that means. Google it, if not. LOL! H served a 2 year LDS mission when he turned 19. This is why it's very hard for me to believe it isn't still inside him somewhere. And it is a huge concern. It is very much a lifestyle change that he's going through. He knows the seriousness of what he's done but he chooses to say "I don't believe in it anymore" to erase any guilt that might be associated with him and the church. I know it has to be the only way he can have a clear conscience and still believe that what he's doing is ok. It's for his happiness, right?
The thought of having to deal with the religion issue with him for the rest of my life, actually makes me shudder. I cannot be with someone who doesn't view LIFE the same as I do. When we were married... our goals and hopes for our family were to raise our kids LDS and continue to live it and grow together with it. Wow. If he only knew that if he were to seek after it again... truly seek after it he would find the answers of what he needs to do and it would be quite clear. His confusion would diminish and he would have a sense of peace.
I cannot make him see it. I don't know if he'll ever see it. But I will continue to follow my heart. Life will teach him his lesson... not me.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
