hi lilly, sorry you're feeling pain and frightened. it's so hard to come to grips with all this.

yes, you can't predict the future so you really can only live one day at a time. more GAL activities will help you with the "time on my hands" and thinking about your sitch so much.

you really can't ask him not to have other relationships now. he feels you've lost that right and it will only push him further away. you can't have any expectations of him.

as for his realationship with your S, yes it's heartbreaking but it's HIS relationship and you have to let him have it.

love and support your son but don't try to direct things between him and your H.

stay on the boards here and read what others are doing and have done. it's so encouraging and informative. read your books, all you can get your hands on, to make yourself the best person you can be.

know that things will get better but it takes time. use this time to become better aquainted with yourself.

M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing