that is quite a development in your sitch. have to go over and catch up on your thread
i'm really not "worrying" about what he's doing, you know? i'll admit i've been a bit worried about his blood pressure lately as he's been so incredibly tense and worked up. but i also noticed that i worried about it in the same way i would about a friend and had NO urge to say or do anything about it.
i do know i'm doing good - more than great - i think back to how i was in jan and march when he went on those trips - and i am nothing like that this time. i do feel the dates a bit - but even that has passed - i acknowledged it here, to myself and to a friend, had a tiny little cry and then after that i was really okay - more than okay and still am
when i think or talk or write here about h, it's more observing now, rather than being "involved" as i used to be for the major part
i don't think i'm a rockstar - but heck i'd say i suddenly have a starring role in my own life - probably for the first time.
thanks for peeping in - and keep us up to date with your latest, eh
hope you're well zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
