Need help with detaching and hoping to reconcile.

[lillystillinlove]

The MC session we had yesterday do not go well. I am unable to contain my anger. I'll admit I am petrified to lose him. It has nothing to do with anything more than the love I feel for him. I get frustrated with his inability to get past his anger so we can start working on repairing our marriage.

How to I manage myself in those sessions, what can I do? I'm doing good when when we are not in that situations, I can work the DR method pretty well but those sessions can be so provocative.

Yes, he's still moving out next week, he stopped seeing his IC (not exactly sure why) he's decline my request to go to Retrouvaille in Sept. (he feels cornered). If I make assumptions I'm told I shouldn't if I don't and ask questions so I understand he says I should already know the answer and that the question makes him feel attacked.

Do I stop asking? Do I live life as if he were not my husband and father to our son? Should I not have any expectations when it comes to our son and the time he spends away from home at his new place? Am I not allowed to ask that any new or any intimate relationships not be pursued because We and Our SON deserves our full effort on the figuring this out?

This is what I'm afraid will happen, he'll live the single life going out to bars, picking up chicks or resurrecting his relationship with the OW in some form. He'll start to neglect his obligations to our son and slowly remove himself from the picture of our family. Why do I say that? He was leaving his second wife when I met him, granted she had some heavy baggage (drug and alcohol addiction, violence toward him) but he was out trolling while married then decided he should give it one more chance, which obviously didn't work. I know I can't predict the future and I'm pretty sure he will not disappear from our son's life but with time on my hands my mind fills in the gaps, and there are a lot of gaps right now.

I feel lost at sea. No way to navigate, no land in sight and no one is looking for me.

Will some one please chime in...