Although it wasn't completely a surprise, still I was hoping that things would not be so bad and I would be able to stay a bit more.
The good thing is that H has taken it well. He is being supportive, telling me that I was miserable anyway at that place, and that I should take a break and that it was time for a new job anyway.
The day after I lost my job we went to attend a Retrouvaille picnic and had so much fun with everyone else!
We are doing OK so far. We never talk about our R but H does talk a lot about future plans, about vacations we are planning to take years from now, he even has mentioned retirement, and it seems like we are a solid team again. No ILY's, no physical affection though. It seems like we are best friends in this M. We do ML regularly, every week or so.
The R with OW I believe no longer is there. I see no traces of any communication other than work related, OW is getting married in just a little over a month now, and H doesn't anymore seem depressed or bothered by it outwardly. I do think that he is suppressing his feelings for OW to avoid feeling hurt, but for me, that is positive, as it means that he is able to control himself more. I also see him as consciously makng an effort to be appreciative of his family.
The doctors he works with in OW's country are here in the US for training; he told me this morning that tomorrow, he wants them to meet me and D. I can see that his prode in his family is coming back, and he seems to want to show us off to them.
I am being very careful to keep my changes, and its hard but slowly I am getting there.
The loss of work, which would have devastated me before, now has been put intoproper perspective by all the sufferings I have been through, and I do think that having my family intact is way more important to my happiness than work, thus I don't even feel bad about it.
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go
