thinking on new life w/o X

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Sleeper,
A 7-year-old at home alone? Yeesh. That seems like a possible CPS call!!

Sounds as if she wants to keep tabs on you.

I really think that many MLCers do not realize that time passes and things change, and the LBS will move on.

X wanted me to do him a favor, something clerical that I used to do during the M. At first said I would. After a while I thought it over and realized I really didn't want to do this favor for him at all. So I told him that I didn't want to and he should find someone else to do it. I was polite and nice but clear. Unlike the past, he wasn't stewing with fury and resentment.

I am headed to a lovely beach town w/New Guy and his girls and D. We feel like a family and it will be fun. We went there last year and the kids had a ball.

I used to feel bad going to this locale (first few years after bomb) because it reminded me of X. I still think of X sometimes when I'm there. But it is not the way that it used to be. I think of some nice memories but they are not painful.

I also remember that the last time we went there, he complained--bitterly--the entire time.

And I guess that's his legacy. More than anything now, I remember his complaining.