I'm not DB'ing that great. Since the slightly cringy text we haven't had much contact.

This morning I saw him when he picked up S. I walked over to his car and looking back he showed me in a little boy sort of way that he'd bought an electronic ciggerette to help him quit. Looking back he was sort of puppy look what I got!!! I only smoke like 3 a day now!!! It really works!!!

I had said so is that your last one? because he was smoking a regular ciggerette and he said well one of my last and I laughed then he said I only smoke like 3 a day. I feel like I should have been more supportive.

He offered me a ride but I was in a tiny skirt and didn't feel like squeezing into his spors car. He said it's good weather I guess you don't need a ride and I looked down at my legs and said dunno if I can really get in! and laughed.

This afternoon S called me and told me about something that had happened that he'd called H about. H had to leave work to sort it out. My heart sunk I just felt back that twice in a day he had to do something for us. I immediately texted H and said I'm really sorry about this. I didn't know it would work out this way etc. I owe you. Sorry. He replied and said Dont' worry about it. The guy was an idiot. Take solace in the fact that I roared up in my car and made him feel 2 feet tall. (this guy causing the hassle not S)

Now this is normally the sort of thing I would have hated. His arrogance and that stupid car!! But I know better from How to Improve and DB coach etc. And I also know it's not my place to teach people how to act. So I just replied Thank you!!!! and made a joke about how that poor guy must have felt. I see now that in the past when H did thinks like this and I told him it wasn't the right way....I was being counter productive on the one hand I wanted him to stand up for himself and stand up for me, on the other hand when he did I got upset because I thought he was being arrogant and rude. I can't have it both ways.

Anyway no reply. I think that's typical...we got slightly closer and now he's backing off and I'm regaining footing. ARGH. I tell you what I started the day really upbeat and it's been chipping away at me. I feel a bit all over the place and need to regroup just my feelings, my thoughts, etc.

A very dear girl friend of mine comes tomorrow to stay for the weekend. It's well overdue!