hi sg - i guess i have a week here to work on myself.

been waking up earlier, and apart from a few down spells, been able to propel myself back to a good place again

h has been withdrawn and picking for a fight since monday, and that's been really hard to have positive interactions all the time. i think the most i've been able to manage is to turn the conversation to a more peaceful level by the end.

i got a bit discouraged yesterday - actually i should say i got put off - and today i've sort of worked myself to an indifference towards him

You are building the attraction and love all over again

i do feel quite confused sometimes about what stand to take. accept the marriage is completely over - but at the same time do the above?

how does one truly do both? what are your thoughts on that?

i'm not even sure what i am really asking here. for now - just to focus on myself.

h going away is a good wakeup call for me to detach further. i'm way way more detached than i was the last time, and i can see a huge difference in how i am dealing with it this time.

it's as if it's not that important and doesn't hold as much weight as before...

i was hoping you'd talk to me more about the KLA stuff - would you"

it would be good for me to focus on something like that for now maybe.

thanks
zig

me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"