"I absolutely will NOT "accept" the fact that she doesn't want to be married... God's word is very clear on this... I FIRMLY believe that... I will keep praying, and HIS will be done... "
Then you will fail.
That is her belief at the moment and while you don't agree with it, you have to respect it because it is your W's decision. Do you see the difference? You respect her right to have a decision, but you don't have to agree to believe in the spirit of it.
If you do not start respecting her decision, you won't be able to understand her POV. If you don't understand her POV, you won't be able to show her compassion. And if you are as godly a man as you're trying to be, you know that you need compassion to show her grace. And that's what's needed right now.
Most importantly, DO NOT talking down to her and preach to her about how she is sinning, etc. That's not going to do you any good at all.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
