I could use some guidance please...this is my post.
I don't know where to start. But here's where I'd like someone's guidanc/feedback. After being separated from my H for a year, our divorce is finally done. There was OW (sadly a friend of ours). Both denied everything. I started to think that I was paranoid (not H's 1st time w/ infidelity), until I found a phone that H purchased so I wouldn't suspect their text/calls from our account. I had confronted both of them about all the texts/calls that they were making to each other...so they solved the problem by getting their own pre-paid phones. I was so disgusted by what I saw/read. It broke my heart. But even after all of this disrespect, I continued to make excuses for him. Now, that the divorce is final, I don't know how to take a "leap" into my new life. I still love H. I wish I hated him more than I love him (if that makes sense). I want to move on, but I don't want to give up on us completely. What is wrong with me? Where do I go from here? How do I get started?
BTW, I read the symptoms of MLC and it fits his action (or lack thereof) to a T.
Anyone's help is greatly appreciated. Thank you so much in advance.
M40 H39 M19+ T20+ S18 S14 S8 S Jun 11 D Jun 12 OW Jul 03 OW Oct 10
