Any chance to make it work? I need advice

[sweetbabyred]

Yesterday afternoon, I finally get a text asking if I want to go to the local water park to see SS. I said yes, but offered for them to come to my pool instead.

They agreed and a few hours later showed up. I find out within a few minutes from SS, that they've already hung out with H's "friend" twice since H picked him up the morning before.

I was hurt that it took almost two days before I was able to see SS and mentioned that to H. He responded by saying that his best friend and his boyfriend had seen him already too, so was I upset by that also.

I said I was disappointed, but his best friend is SS's godfather and the boyfriend has known SS for almost 3 years and SS loves him too. So I was disappointed, but understood that I had to wait.

This new girl has only known H for 2 1/2 months and has never met SS, so I was annoyed that she got to see him and go to Legoland with him the first day and then have lunch with him the next day.

I had that day off, so I was available to spend it with SS and H knew that, but instead drove 25 miles to see this girl at the restaurant she works at.

While at the pool H realized he never asked anyone to watch SS when he went out of town the next day. A friend is going to watch him for a few hours tonight while I'm at work, and then I'll have him until tomorrow when H flies home.

H keeps saying this other girl is just a friend, but I'm sick of all of his other friends getting to hang out and do fun stuff with him, while I just get called when he has nothing else going on.

I show up at the house today to watch SS until our friend shows up and find out that I am driving H to the airport in my own car because he used all his gas driving 25 miles to see other friends today.

So I have to use my gas and pay tolls to go to the airport because he can't plan ahead.

Needless to say, I was a little annoyed, but tried not to say anything. H kept mentioning that I had no need to be worried about his friend, even though I never said anything. It was annoying to keep being reminded of her.

As we pulled into the airport I eventually said something to annoy H, although I don't remember what it was. He said that we probably couldn't be friends and that he'd find someone to watch SS when he moves, so I wouldn't have to see him at all.

I know I said something about not wanting to be his friend if all it meant was that I helped him out when he needed rides to the aiport or other help, while everyone else got to have fun with him.

I was so annoyed I even said that I'd appreciate him giving me notice when he files the papers so I wouldn't be caught off guard.

He responds by saying he's too busy to fill out all of the forms, but he should probably do it soon so I can move on. H even suggests that I could do it if I was in such a hurry.

I replied by saying that I didn't want a divorce and I would never fill out the forms, no matter what.

That's pretty much where the conversation ended and I dropped him off. I then sent a text saying that he'd been saying he was confused, but if he was certain he was done, to please make the divorce a priority and I'd leave him alone.

I was trying so hard to detach, but I just can't keep hearing about how much fun he has with his friends, especially when I'm not asking or wanting to know.

I may have erased any improvement I've made in the last few months, but I don't think I can deal with him trying to find dates, etc. while we're married.

It's one thing for him to figure out what he wants in life, but if that involves other women I feel stupid waiting around.

And he's hired two of them for his events, bringing them into my industry, and all the while knowing that I really need money because I'm fronting all the expenses for selling the house.

I need someone who will put me first. I really had hopes that it would be H, but I have to seriously consider that it won't be. I'm not high maintenance, but I do deserve respect and someone who wants to be my partner in life.