"I feel if I move on I'm giving up and if I don't, I'm wasting my life away."
It's what you should have done months ago. It's called "detaching". Not engaging her IS doing something. Just because you're not engaging with her, it doesn't mean that you've given up. That is the main thing you need to understand.
Giving her time and space is a gift. She could very well be using that time to go out with someone else, but if that's what she needs to do, then so be it. If you confine and press her, you will push her further away.
And just because you're not engaged with your W, doesn't mean you're "wasting your life away". Even when she was around, you probably kept busy with your kids, your hobbies, your job, etc. That's what you need to do now.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
