Thank you NHMom. I feel like I spent March -May in some sort of fog. Someone termed it Newcomer Fever and god it's so true. I was a mess. I think you have to drop the rope and regain your footing. Before you can start to grow. I'm not the person I was when I walked away and I'm not the person I was a few months ago.
H texted me this evening. He hadn't texted me since the slightly cringe-y text from yesterday. It was all business about him picking up S tomorrow. Friendly but I am cautious not to overstep after I felt myself having expectations. I am happy that I ended the text convo and just said see you tomorrow.
