yes i know ces - that's what i should be focusing on!!
I will have s with me on monday - i work until 4 and then pick him up from his class. i haven't planned anything for the evening - i will look into that.
it's an odd time here - friends are all out of town or working so not much gal'ing and i have been trying to work way more than i have done.
i'm feeling a tad bit deflated - not because of h - but because i've spent the last 2 or 3 weeks going through some really big emotional stuff that was coming out so hard and fast, that i could barely catch my breath. i think the effect is that i am quite exhausted
and all of that has actually made me "move away" emotionally from h - even though there were so many positive developments in the last 3 weeks
he's really fallen off the pedestal for me - and when he gets into the behavior he has been displaying this last few days - i feel so put off...
about knowing your adversary so you can fight them:
i know what i'm up against - but i'm done fighting - it's becoming a chore now, that i don't even care to participate in. do you know what i mean?
it's got to the point of being downright tiresome - his drama and his chaos.
thanks for stopping by - how are things going with you since your family got back? well, i hope - will go catch up in a bit
zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
