I am getting control back and I'm sick to my stomach that I let it go on for this long.

Here's the nut-you are a controller who feels out of control and it scares the shite out of you! I know, been there, done that.

Let that go, I know it sounds undoable but it isn't, it just takes work.

Talk yourself thru it, Why do I feel so afraid? Why do I feel so angry? What is it that scares me about this? What is the worst that could happen if I drop the rope?

You can't control him, you can control you.

And J, I know you feel overwhelmed right now but this is where growth happens. Don't back down from yourself now.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss