lmao..running it? yeah right..blind leading the blind and all that. the lady does ask me what i think and lets me ramble which can be fun. there is alot of negativity there, so i try to pick up on the positives and talk about that.
it is good to feel how i want and say what i think again. the fear is gone. it feels good to be myself again. i dont know what is going to happen with the D since i cant afford a L. i am okay with that. i am not afraid. everything happens for a reason. i put my faith in god. he hasnt let me down. i havent got the outcomes i desired probably because the outcome he desired for me is different. my dad is a religious man. similar to a priest. he gave me a blessing after my W moved out. part of it was "the wildest horses sometimes become the noblest steeds." maybe that is gods plan for me. to finally learn from my mistakes and become the person i know i can be.
strength comes from within. there is such power in knowing myself and knowing that i will be ok. i will be more than ok. i will be ME!
Grace-
thank you. you are so kind. the hugs always brighten my day. physical touch and words of affirmation. i am bilingual. lol.. so the hugs really mean alot. i dont know if i am technically GAL. i am happy doing what i am doing and i am not second guessing it. i have went out with people, had bbq's, did my meetings. all without expecting anything. i have been pleasantly surprised.
