WHG: And so we file...

[workinghardguy]

I don't know where my heart is... If the D would actually make the hurt stop then I'm there, but it really won't. It just changes the legal standing.

I wish I knew why the past two weeks have just been so hard. I feel like I'm back six months ago. Not necessarily in the attachment part... that's still better. I don't get phased by her mood swings or issues anymore.

But it's just hurt so much the past two weeks... more than in a really long time. Maybe it's because I've seen so little of her in the past few weeks. Prior to that we were still in contact often because of the kids. I just wish I knew what had changed because I'd really like to go back to my prior state.

Or maybe it's just another stage of grief... moving towards acceptance.

But I do feel stuck. I know the mantra is to hold on for at least one more day longer. That today isn't the day I'm going to give up.

Just without much hope. So I don't know where my heart is... I don't think it's fully there yet though.