I have a beginners mind and am willing to do, try, anything different than the same roller coaster of bad reactions going on 3 yrs now. I have read lots of posts here, and have started the DB book but bootcamp replies from 2 people really speak to me. I am in so much trouble (not to say more than anyone else) how can I participate in boot camp. I am ready to work hard and face the road ahead, and would love to pay it forward.
Me 45, H 52 M 23 D 18, S 21, S 23, S 25 (all living @ home) OW June 2011, A 4months, EA continues GH, dead and living w/depression suicidal tendencies Deep love for family, suppresses love for family- can't face life-grass is greener on other side so must maintain separation D mentioned 1 month ago, continues to reflect life's neg. fortifying D idea.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
