SA, the boys have tried to tell my H how they feel, but he dismisses it and tells them that I've brainwashed them. They are both so frustrated and disgusted by him that they no longer want to see or communicate with him. They're also angry that he keeps texting that 50% of marriages end in divorce so why is he being punished blah, blah, blah. He just refuses to believe that he alone is responsible for the hurt feelings and devastation. Oh well, I cried for about two minutes out of frustration and then carried on, so I guess he doesn't affect me much anymore.
Apparently, my H has forgotten a lot of what he told me in the beginning like he's soul searching, trying to figure out why he's so difficult to live with and that after working through his resentment he felt like he was more to blame for the problems in our marriage than me. But for months now he been convinced that he had to leave and it's all my fault. I hope he's at the height of his tantrum and that it will start dissipating.
SA and BM, thanks for the reminders and encouragement. My focus now has been reassuring the boys that we will have a happy, joyful life and that one person can't take that away. I had to get to a point where I believed that myself and I'm finally there. I just want the finances to be settled so that I no longer have underlying worries.
