I must be missing something. Why was the T terrible?
But it doesn't really matter because H's choice of T is his choice. And that's focusing on him, not you.
It does get better, it's painful at times but it does get so much better. However, first you have to drop the rope. That is a process, it doesn't happen over night but you have to remind yourself every time you think of him, "Drop The Rope."
You can do this.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss